hey hey hey ^^
TML IS THE RELEASE OF COUNCIL RESULTS!
omg. i am so scared. like super.
i want to be in!
i want!
but if i don't, hmm. i'll be a bit emo,
but i'll get over it.
we'll see.

i feel like i'm really lagging behind in jc..
alot of hmk.. but i just let them rot in my bag..
i should stop being like this..
i need the weekends man!!!
i'll just like chiong everything then.

and i am giving tuition on saturdays and sundays ^^
wahahah $$. but of course i am not gonna spend a single cent on
shopping. i am going to save everything. after my A levels,
i am going to go some europe country with my friends and
GO CRAZY.

i think i am a coward.
although it ended 10 months ago, i still don't dare
to show my feelings. there's like this part of me that
is afraid that people will hurt me again.
i gave my all last time, but ended up kneeling on the floor
crying. there's so many what ifs..
at this age there are so many things that i want to do,
want to try. and its just so tempting.
i want a person who appreciates God as much as i do,
someone who'll pray with me, read the bible with me,
and just help me grow spiritually as a christian,
someone who has the same goals as me, and love sports as much as i do,
someone who listens and understands me, and of course patient.
and not some empty r/s that leads to nowhere.
yeah a person like this is like one in a million.

until then i shall bury myself in work, and hang out with my friends.
:))
wish me luck for tmr!!